This is the last message in a series of four messages written during the course of an Ayahuasca retreat in Peru in November 2018. These messages were addressed to my lovely wife and written after each ceremony. Names of people and locations have been changed for privacy. I am sharing these messages as a gift to show the beauty and insights that come from plant medicine ceremonies.
Once again, this was an amazing ceremony. Although people were definitely getting tired after four nights. I skipped smoking the pipe and had a cup and a half of medicine. The ceremony proceeded as usual. However, knowing I wouldn’t be singing again in ceremonies for a while, I sang more tonight than any other nights. I performed a love song about you and Claire, a song for Pachamama, and one in French about mother Ayahuasca. That’s right, a French medicine song, who would have known. I savored each moment, said the closing prayer along with Sena, and helped where I could.
While I’m not writing much tonight, I received one of the most significant visions so far. It concerned the relationship between our breath and Mother Nature. As I was savoring each breath in the midst of relentless icaros, I visualized the inside of my lungs lined with tiny little trees, absorbing the air around us. A rich and colorful ceremony in its own right that was happening with every single breath, a dance of perfect harmony between our bodies and Mother Nature’s. If the air we breathe is part of her then, with each breath, her love nourishes our body, a perfect fit to receive her gift. She comes into our body, our lungs, her presence inside of us. Each breath is a sign of her unconditional love. So much to be grateful for. This was a new way to love Mother Nature.
“Each breath is a sign of her unconditional love.”
Of course, there was way more than I can recall but this was the most important message tonight. Something we can carry forward with every single breath.
At the end of the ceremony we took turns reflecting and appreciating the last few days. All of us have gained deep insights and I am thankful for having gone through this with such an amazing group.
Now it’s 5:20 am, I haven’t slept, the sun is out, I need to rest. I hope this last entry finds you and Claire well in the comfort of our beautiful home.